realize

If you just realize what i've just realize

Then we'd be perfect for each other

and we'll never find each other

just realized what i just realized

we;d never have to wonder if

we missed out on each other.

Colbie Cailat

i went to Yi qing's house today, Shook yuan was there too. They started studying yesterday, but i wasn't there. They;ve asked me if i'd like to join.. but i said no, cause i want to spend time with my family. Today was another nightmare. i was "bullied" again. Both of them started making eye contacts and doing something in front of me "again". I tried not to bother and ignore that. but later then, they ask me to play a song on the piano and they will tell me WHAT EVER HAPPENED before i came. so i've played a song, but turns out they were just making fun of me. I was mad, of course. after a while, we planed to have a break. shook yuan went out side to jump on the trampoline. so i went on the swing. suddenly, shook yuan pulled yi qing in the room and locked me outside. I was like WTF? den i realize the back door was opened. so i used it to go in. I was exhausted. I was tired with their childish behavior. so i sat down and stared at the book. i didn't want to talk to them. so i used Headache as an excuse. Later, we all went outside again to talk. Shook yuan went home half way, left me and Yi Qing. we talked about love, family, school and many more. Suddenly, Yi Qing told me that i was the only friend that she'd never had problem with. I was so.. i felt so mean. i didn't know what to do. I just said Thanks. Maybe i was wrong? maybe i'm not. but sometimes, its hard to decide what is meant to be.

Yi Qing, sorry if you're mad at me after reading this blog. but blogging is where i can release my feelings, I hope u'll understand. i wont keep anything bad in my heart, so i hope we can be normal as usual. (:

BTW PEOPLE! G-FORCE IS SO DARN NICE!