It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.
Lady Antebellum
Had a double D talk just now.
He said its time to hit the reset button on me.
He asked me if I am ready for the challenge, a new life.
He asked me if I can do it.
He told me it wouldn't be hard. just Focus.
He also said that there's risks.
I wouldn't get to see them in times.
I wouldn't get to be with them in times.
I wouldn't know whats happening in times.
I'll miss them every second.
Always hoped this day would come, and here it is.
But i dont feel happy at all.
There's just too much to worry.
Family <3 Friends <3 Family <3 still Family <3
I dont know what will happen when everybody know whats going on.
Will they remember that spot i use to take?
Will they remember that line i use to say?
Will they even remember that there's a person like me?
i dont know, i dont know at all..
I really dont like Friday's now.
I get all emotional everytime.
Im not sure if its 'misunderstanding' or is it my problem just not noticing?
why is it always me?!
Life is hard man, hard.
For once in my life time,
i actually understand the meaning of being together and hugs.
being together doesn't mean it must always have everyone there. its just a fact.
hugs are sweet, its also a way of saying hi/bye.
but long, tight hugs doesn't just mean that little.
its more than anything. Its Love.
any i will miss that very much <3
Met someone special to me, first time in my life, felt much important myself.
Am not sure how about em's background, its complicated..
but its still sweet making me smile every single day (:
sometimes felt jealous too..
dont know why, although its past..
but am still afraid..
Hopefully will have an amazing time with em', soon, between this 2 months (:
Tired being emo.
nights loves.
have Halo aud' tomorrow. hopefully i wont fail my life.
xoxo,
cyd
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