A new Journey: 爱上你 , What you waiting for

Hello ladies and gentlemen.
Its been a month since i last signed into this account. LOL
Wanted to update when it was my birthday.. but i got very lazy and also it was time for exam.
Please forgive me ;D

Live's been really
Amazing -
I cant believe its already June!
another month or 2 then i will leave Malaysia . Looking very forward to the days in US. but also will be freaking sad about the things here.
Also, its finally Holiday! My last exam in Malaysia has finally over, it wasn't perfect but i dont think i'll get bad results either.. so yeahh.. hope everything goes with the flow i want/i need.
It has also been a month since i officially coupled.
Everything AINT in the right place at all, in this relationship. but we both stood strong and tall..
The problem wasn't from him, it was me.
My parents totally disagree us together for not much of reasons given. i dont know why.. T.T
but i really hope they could accept this for just another 2 months. we both know what we're doing and we know how is it going to end sooner or later.
Anyhow, atleast my first time couple didn't break up cause of our relationship problems. its the matter of distance. If anyone who know's my parents, that are reading this.. feel free to tell them bout me and 'that guy' still being together. i'll probably just get grounded for the rest of my life, having my air ticket to US canceled. what else can i ask for? i dont have my life anyways.

Tiring -
Its been really exhausting these few weeks..
Examination had really brought me down.
i didn't text with Him for quite sometime. only until the holidays.
We practically spend time together.
and i just got some kind of stress everytime im with him or just studying.
its obvious for studying right? that im pressured.
but i dont understand the pressure i have when im with him..
its like, i just turn to be emo whenever i see him. and we barely even see each other.. once a week i guess..? i cant believe i screw up everytime. haiiz..

Lifeless -
Its time to pack up my belongings, my books, my clothes, my attitude problems, my life.
Its like eveyrthing i do effects someone. it will be a sensitive issue to SOMEONE.
Even using the word GAY with my best friend is an issue. Wtf.
Everything i do is somehow WRONG.
I am very tired of talking about this i just dont know who to crap to!
well, u know what?!
my 'stress' comes from YOU.
im tired of this.

about 2 more months and i'll be Free.
Free from the issues cost.
Free from everything else i;ve been stressing all along.
but i'll never be free with my love ones.
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first will definitely be my family
second will be my friends and "him"
third, anything worth me to remember.
I'll miss everything and everyone of u !

This holiday is like.. packed with plans but i couldn't go.
Sorry gay bro, i cant go ur party. cant believe im going to miss it.
you guys will definitely have loads of fun without me, atleast better than my party, dont forget to take more photos for me! (:

im really exhausted! ;D