Dont want an Ending

This song is produced by Kurt and sang by Sam Tsui.
This song means very much to me and i wish to share it with you.
Listen to the lyrics and you'll probably get what i mean (:
Enjoy.

Hey everyone,

Im back to update my blog (:

Finally got my Desktop, its beautiful.

Im still testing it out, I hope there isn’t any problem with it.

Im sick, started just about 2 days ago. I wasn’t feeling very well, then I got fever this morning. Everyone was like BIEBER FEVER, you’ve got BIEBER FEVER! Lol come on, my bieber fever stopped months ago -.-

Anyways, luckily its Saturday today, so I don’t have to struggle in school.

Talk about school, I think I got quite used to the environment and the school system.

I have 6 periods and have to run to my classes in different buildings everyday. Its tiring but I think its fun (:

Been struggling for the past weeks about my homework, test’s and just my English. Everything here is 10 times harder than Malaysia. So many homeworks that I cant finish it fast, takes atleast more than 4 hours after school. I sleep only 6 hours everyday, I’m really tired.

I believe if you often check my facebook updates, you’ll realize how much I love weekends. Cause it’s the only time I get to relax just a little bit more.

Its not easy to fit into this school when you don’t know anyone. Specially when you’re a Junior.

Everyone’s already in a group of their own, its hard for me to make friends and maybe join their group. Cause every group has weird people in it, and I don’t want to be the odd one.

My Grandparents just left LA 2 days ago, their flight was like Friday 1am. And I have school the next day, so I couldn’t go to the airport.

I called my brother when he got to the airport and told him to pass the cell phone to my granddad. Yea, same old thing, “be a good girl, study hard, I want to see you graduating”. Don’t know why but everyone seemed to know what he’s going to say.. He always tells us (grand childrens) the same thing whenever he see’s us. Though its kind-of annoying sometimes, but he just wants the best for all of us. I’ll miss him telling me that soon.

Then he passed the phone to my Grandmother, i don’t know why but I start shedding tears when she started talking. But I hold onto it, don’t wanna let em’ know im crying. She loved the video I made for her birthday (Well, I edited, not I made) She said “thank you” a few times, made me felt awkward, somehow..

There they go, another family member of mine left LA. Or is it just me who went away?

My brother told me that my grandmother looked like she was going to cry when she was talking to me on the phone. We were are a restaurant having lunch that time, and I just cried, again. I covered my face with napkins, but it was obvious that I couldn’t resist to express my feelings. Though I don’t see my grandparents all the time back in Malaysia, but anyhow, they ARE my grandparents, and I’ve spent time with them before, when I was young or even now. I’ll miss them, somehow.

Moon Cake festival just past about 3 days ago, I was going to update my blog and “if the moon fell down tonight” was to be my title. But I didn’t have a laptop to update and i cant find a clear version of the song so i changed it to this (Title) song instead. I used to eat moon cakes with my family in the living room. Playing with candles, burning them with my brothers instead of holding a “tang lung”. Well, we do hold tang lung’s when we walk around the park infront of my house. But all those were past. I don’t think I’ll get the chance to do that ever recent again. Atleast not in 2 years. 

I guess sometimes, even though you don’t think you’re missing anything on spot, you’ll loose it in the future.

Spent sometime calling my friends last night, I called a few people but no one picked up my phone. I was so excited to talk to my friends again, hoping we can still be as hyper as how we were before. But the more people I tried to call, more disappointments I get. No one seemed to be picking up my phone call.. What are they doing? I was wondering. Then, finally Joyan picked up. But she was busy, so I didn’t get to talk to her for long. Then I called Denise’s house phone. Her mother picked up the phone, and she asked for my name. Surprisingly she knows who I am and where I am (: She started speaking English to me, its was so cute. She told me to call Denise’s cell phone number about 10 minutes later, because she was on her way back from school. Then only I realize why my friends didn’t pick up my call. 

So anyways, I try calling Yi Qing again, she has so many numbers that none of em’ work. But then I give it a try again. Finally she picked up my call. I was like testing if she knew who I am. About a minute later, she realize it was me. I don’t know if she felt happy that I called, but I was so glad to hear her voice again. We talked about 10 minutes then she had to get her lunch, so I told her I’ll call her some other day.. So It was about time for me to talk to Denise. She was waiting by the phone incase she miss my call. That was so cute of her (: so yeah, we started asking each other stuff’s. She was the 2^nd person I met in Catholic High School, and has been one of my best-est friend ever. We use to talk about anything in the old days. But I don’t know why, I felt  a piece of silent’s between us.  Its like we’re just normal friends or something. Well, that didn’t break me down. Im still glad that someone picked up my call. 

Oh whao, I bet this is one of the longest post I’ve ever written.

Anyways, to those who is reading my blog, please don’t blame me for always being emotional on my blog.

Blogging is like the only place I can express my feelings, also the only place to crap about my things. So please don’t be emotional because of me ;D

Thanks for spending time on my blog, for who ever is reading. Its really nice of you to check my blog. But if you want better info on whats happening with my life, FACEBOOK is the best way (:

Well, I got to go now.

Will try to update sometime soon again.

Love,

Cydney (:

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