需要人陪

一个我 需要梦想 需要方向 需要眼泪  
 

更需要 一个人来 点亮天的黑  
 

我已经 无能为力 无法抗拒 无路可退  
 

这无声的夜 现在的我 需要人陪

I've been listening to this song quite lately..

The lyrics mean so much to me (:

School started a few days ago.. 

I was scared, afraid, nervous.. yet a little excited.

I've no idea how will i do.. what will happen..

All i know is that everything = nothing.

I have nothing to expect from school, just hope everything goes on well (:

I am so lazy to update how school went so.. if you wanna know anything about it, just ask me directly (:

Anyways, my room is 80% complete.

all i need is a mirror and a desktop ;D

House still doesn't have internet / tv to watch yet..

Everyone who came into my room says its like a bar.. 
cause my study table is tall, and so is everything else. LOL (:

I like sitting on my bed at night. with my small lamp next to me.. listening to the iPod.. just relax.. 
That's practically the only moment i clear my mind and to recall what i do when im still in Malaysia. 
I shed tears sometimes.. I realize how much i've been changing from top to the bottom.. inside out.. I dont feel like im the old, me..


I use to wear "cute/cool" outfit's when i go to the mall or anywhere else.. 
I use to do something to my hair or even wear neckless / bracelet's whenever im out of the house. I rather hurt my feet wearing high heel's all day long back then.. but now.. its just flip flops or flats.. I can't do anything stupid or so.. when im hyped.. 
I speak mandrin only to my family.. 
I feel so stupid and so ashamed that i actually listen and liked Justin Bieber. 
I dont feel comfortable with practically everything in my life now. but i play the roll and act like someone everyone agree on. I lost myself.

There are so many things that are different here, i need to get used to with.
I miss those days when i spend with my family and friends..
I miss you guys..


I somehow cant wait to get my own desktop in my room..
its not because i can go online every second i want without anyone nagging my to leave the room.. 
I just need somewhere i can do things i like that no one has to know what im doing..
Like this video below.. 
I watched it with my cousin's and my brother..
They all hate Justin Bieber, but they watch it cause they wanna make fun of him.
I got so happy when i saw this video.. even though he's not singing or so.. i just felt so happy again to actually watch Justin's video.. but i kept it to myself. 

Anyways.. I gtg. so tired of drama's everyday o.o

update again next time

Love Cyd